One of my vices..one of my many vices, but the one that gets me in trouble a lot is impatience.
I want answers right now..solutions yesterday and results today.
So when i pray, one of the main things i ask God for is patience.
The ability to wait patiently for things to work out the way they are meant to.
Of course as a thinking, feeling being, it's not always easy because I feel it then i think about how to solve it and then i do..or try to.
However, I'm learning that, some situations would never occur if i had been patient enough in the beginning and let things naturally unfold as they are supposed to.
My prayer for myself this new year, is to be more patient and to consciously recognize when I'm in situations that require me to be patient. Like today.
More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.—Romans 5:3-5
But at the same time, i feel like a failure. Like i told myself that i would try...and try..and try until i either succeeded or couldn't try anymore. So i'm at a point where i'm questioning whether i tried hard enough. But like with all things..a go/no-go decision has to be made..when enough is enough and i'd rather be unsuccessful now than in the future...i guess.