7 things going through my mind...!!!

1. Soccer...like milk..does the body good!! Have you seen the bodies on those soccer players?...Mommy like!! :) I'm not a big fan of the overly muscular...i like to appreciate it from afar but I dunno..gimme lean any day over ginormous muscles and you got yourself a happy girl!! :)

2. Competing w/ le boy on who can firm up their abs quickest ($100 by December)...all started cuz he said my tummy was smooth and fluffy like amala or tuwo...*rolls eyes*...so..i need all the tips (unconventional only please!)...i now eat right and exercise...I'm working on that part. I want other crazy tips like drink scalding hot water before bed...or hop on one leg for 5 minutes...that you have tried and that works!! :) Thank um...this is what I'm going for..

Una think say I fit? I'm extra pumped to do it cuz of all the side bets against me apparently taking place...if you want to win good money..you should bet on me..I'm the underdog...like Seabiscuit..:) (wait..was Seabiscuit the underdog?)

..My incentive...some $100 shoes yeah boy!!!!! :)


3. I like doing "different" things..i mean i know I'm not unique in that regard..but i would try almost anything once. This past weekend I got to go ziplining through the trees...it was kinda scary cuz all you have is a harness (although they said it could hold up to 285lbs...i was like..."watch mine be the only one that doesn't!"). It was lots of fun though...swinging into rope ladders and crossing from post to post 500ft up in the air....however..skydiving and bungee jumping are out!!

Now if you can get me to do something different...followed by food..I'd be all for it..ex..in DC this Sunday (i think it might be a weekly thing)..they are doing a Tone,Taste and Tan thingie where you do 1hr of yoga on the roof of the Liaison Capitol Hill, and then you get breakfast after that at Chef Art Smith's restaurant
and then you get to chill by the pool for as long as you want...
The only bummer is that it's $50 bucks!!

4. Bout to move y'all!! Gosh..I've moved every year since 2006...actually make that 2005. It's getting tiring. I love moving..but the packing up part I'm not a fan of..help anyone?

5. So ever since I discovered Pinkberry..the magical place with orgasmic frozen yogurt...I mean i still eat ice cream but I crave frozen yogurt...i walked miles and miles in NY just to find a Pinkberry. Well seeing as the nearest Pinkberry is like 170 miles away...I figured that was a thing of the past..but one fateful day this weekend...on my way to Chipotle (lmao..ask me how that bet is working out for me..SATURDAY IS MY CHEAT DAY OK? I can have a barbacoa burrito with rice and black beans if i want to!!)... I discovered Yogiberry...not Pinkberry but it'll do...they charge like $.45/ounce and they have all this wacky flavors..i swear they have cocoyam flavored yogurt..blech! but the original..with some mango and strawberry pieces is Amazing!!! especially with this crazy heat we're having!

6. Is anyone else.. 1)apathetic bordering on mad about Lindsay Lohan? Like seriously, I had high hopes for that girl's career..hope she can get it together. 2)Enraged and disgusted by Mel Gibson? I mean the tape i listened to was definitely a set up and if that's him on the other line..he fell for it hook line and sinker 3) Secretly in love with the Allstate abi statefarm insurance guy in those commercials? I dunno why...he's just such a goofball 4) Intrigued by the old spice dude? I love him... I know he's scripted but he does such a good job of delivering his lines..makes me want to switch my bodywash to old spice :)

"look at me...now look at you man...now back at me..." Hehehehe!! funnee

7. One of my FB friends who i FB stalked for a while..who is a pretty good poet..apparently just got a degree and is wanting everyone to know because his status always starts with "Dr. So and so wants you to know that 33% of the world's population doesn't drink enough water". I'm like "Shuo...cuz of degree you now want us to accept what we could easily find on google as fact because you say so?"...maybe I'm just hating on the dude....but I'm definitely guilty of defriending ppl based on their status posts....hehehehe...evil!!


What y'all folk been up to these days?
Please lemme know your tips..i'm serious all you skinny bitches (i mean that as a term of endearment). I currently work out 4 to 5 days a week for at least 1hr and i eat pretty healthy...so...um...i want magical stuff..cant afford surgery just yet tho.

ooooh ooohhh...and...if you guys have done anything crazy/fun/different...definitely inform a sister make she too follow una try.

DMV bloggers that would like to do the Tone,Taste and Tan kini...we could make it a date...:)


Deuces!!

The truth..nothing but...

Nobody tagged me...but i'm a thief like that so..there!!! I really was gonna random about just random stuff...but this'll do.

Right now I'm feeling....mellow...a lil apprehensive...a lot blessed...a lil in denial

When I'm alone I feel....introspective, like i can solve the world's problems in my mind.

When I'm surrounded by people I feel.....depends...if they're ppl i know and like,i feel comfortable..if they're ppl i dont know, i feel shy and introverted. If they're around ppl i dont like...i leave!

One thing I hate is....inconsideration (is that a word?)...just ppl with their head in the clouds or their asses..like "wtf..you are not on this planet alone...don't be a jerk!"

One thing I really like about myself is .....my ability to logically think through a problem and sometimes come up with a solution..

When I'm feeling sad I......listen to sad music, cry, pray, write in my journal, read my bible


When I daydream it's usually about.......life after grad school,sleep,sexy time

I'm afraid of.....losing loved ones, dying, failure.

I'm happiest when......i've ..checked off everything on my to-do list, just finished working out, made good decisions that day.

One thing that really worries me is .... that things might not work out the way i want them to in any/all aspects of my life.

If I could change one thing about myself it would be.....my temper.

If I could be with anyone right now I would be with.....my nephew!!! gosh i miss my goobie!

The family member I am closest to is........honestly no one person more than the other but i'd say my mom and 2 older sisters.

If I was really honest with my father I would tell him....that I love him for his sacrifices and his silent way of showing he loves us but i would like to hear it more.

One thing I regret about my life is ......NOT being informed/upfront/honest...

If I only had one more day to live I would......get right with the Lord, hang out with fam and write personalized letters to all the people I love...pretty good for me.

If I was really honest with my mother i would tell her.....that i love her and her prayers definitely work and i appreciate her more and more everyday..

One thing about me that nobody knows is......when i'm alone, i put on my highest heels and shake my booty in front of the mirror.

I hope that someday in the future.....I can actually do something to help someone other than myself.

When I think about my family I feel.....happy...those ppl crack me up (nuclear)..pissed off (extended)

Something I'm really embarrassed about is....oooh oooh i remember...so when i first met one of my oldest friends..she was singing a song, i forget..and she said the wrong words..so i took the time to listen to the song, learn the words and then i confronted her about singing it all wrong...lol..i was a weirdo.

One thing about me I never want to change is.....my wanting to solve ppls problems.

One thing I feel really proud of is.....being able to leave all that was familiar to me and strike out on my own...and then do it again once i got comfortable.

Blogsville has helped me to.....accept that i might actually have something to say..and sometimes ppl might actually want to read it.

One thing I like about blogsville is......that there are some funny-ass, cool-ass, nonjudgemental-ass ppl on here.

Phew...i tag whoever wants to do it....

...running through my head..all the things she said

So...I don't think i celebrated my 100th post..but this one is my 200th!! Yay!!...

I think I'll make it a random blog..

One of the perks of living in The Wire country...I definitely see firsthand what an ankle monitoring bracelet looks like..*like I've ever wondered*...na wa oh..see this dude just jejely stepping out of the train with his summer shorts on and his lil bracelet like it was nothing...not even trying to lindsaylohan it. I just stared...

One of the downsides of living in The Wire country...weirdo central..why do all the weirdos/shady looking ppl/crazies/sleazy ass men/disgustos/pervs gravitate towards me?
EVERYDAY..EVERYDAY.
If it's not some dude in a wheelchair offering to give me ride if i sit in his lap, it's a schizophrenic "pastor" offering to take me to his church for "counseling". The new thing is all the cab drivers who all happen to be igbo..and now apparently all know my name and still...STILL feel the need to do that hissing calling thing..i'm over it!

Dear Baltimore...a pick up line that starts with you telling me either that you are currently on the run from your home state of North Carolina because your soon to be ex-wife filed an assault claim against you that led to a warrant...OR that starts with you telling me about your two kids and their mommas...WILL never..EVER..end with me giving you my number!!

I decided..finally to start back on my healthy living regimen...for the 100th time..and the only reason i'm even talking about it is so that hopefully it will keep me honest to verbalize it. I'm competing with my mom and my sister to see who will win. Naturally, I will..obviously but let's not tell them that.:)There are no losers..only winners..and technically even the winners would be losers..hehe dry joke! So far it's been good..I definitely see a difference!

One of my favorite hobbies is...facebook stalking *hangs head in shame* I know i know...but seriously..i was looking through someone's facebook pictures and it turns out she has friends in common with a friend of mine...said friend being someone who i've had an "interesting" past with..so in my head i cringed slightly..then i decided that I'm of too little importance to think that they might possibly talk about me.

Ppl who know me know that I don't shy away from confrontation..when i have to but I'd just rather avoid it. What i do hate is when you meet people who supposedly have beef with you and they pretend there's nothing wrong..I'd rather you ignore me..or kick my ass than kiss me..that's just me.

Life is interesting...not MY life..mine is as boring and routine as it comes..but I LOVE IT. I'd rather live vicariously through those around me. I don't think I'd ever look back and be like.."men, i wished i partied more, drank more, filled my life with more drama..etc"

The one thing i do wish I'd have done more of by now is travel more..definitely. I'd love to do the Europe thing, the Africa thing, the South America thing, the Asia thing...meh..all in good time.

Even though i know everyone's journey is different, it's not easy not to compare my life to other ppls...like.."if i'd chosen a different path..I'd be done with school by now" or "if i had gone straight to grad school rather than taking that time to work..i'd be done with school forever by now..or close"..etc..but that's life abi?.. moments not milestones and alladat.

It's interesting the way people think/conclusions they draw by looking at you...ex:
I have a batman lunchbox..(SUE ME I LOVE BATMAN!)..so I must have a son..even if i had a kid..why can't she be a girl and why cant she love batman?

I work at "my school"...so I must be a nurse..Why can't i be a doctor?

I'm black..so I must be a new employee at the animal facilities..why can't i just be a student coming to harvest some mice?


I recently wrote an angry letter to my cousins in naija...well i don't think it was angry..i think it was brutally honest..but they didn't seem to find it funny...hellificare!! As long as you get the message.

You know what population i'm currently hating on? Skinny chicks with big boobs..like WTF? How is that fair? I confess that I was totally hating on my friend who stayed with me recently with her nice boobs and nice booty with nice long legs to (great now she'll think i'm gay) and she's freaking smart too and pretty and light skinned and a good dancer! Ugh!! I hate her...like a lot!! :)..normally..you dont have it all..you either have (1) nice boobs and no booty ..(2) booty and just ok boobs or (3)nice legs and no booty or boobs or (4)you can just be petite with no boobs and no booty.... I know for sure my boobs are nothing I'm just going to settle for being healthy HOW ABOUT THAT? just healthy!! hmmpfff!!

What say ye folks? Do you feel me on the skinny chics with big boobs or am i just once again subscribing to what society deems to be beautiful?

That's all she wrote folks!
Enjoy the rest of your week...

I don't want us to be the end of me....

...#5

I know it's not just me...cuz Mgbeks don addressed it already..but everybody seems to be getting hitched and wanting you (read: me) to know about it. And I'm completely happy for each and everyone of them...shoutout to Melanie and Keith getting married tomorrow!!

I, Kate suffer from bouts of "when-will-it-be-my-turnitis".
I'll be the first one to admit that there are a list of logical reasons why I'm probably not ready to get married...ranging from financial to educational but dang...can we put a ring on it? My finger and my eggs are shriveling as we speak :)....CALM DOWN...i'm just being dramatic for effect.

I kinda feel like this post will jinx me but I don't believe in jinxes *maybe a little*.
But if i were to be completely open and honest with myself sometimes (not all the time)...I feel that I'm not emotionally ready to get married cuz..

- I have this image of myself in my head of who I'm meant to be abi who I want to be and I don't think I'm there yet. I'm working on it and I know I've changed. Recently, one of my friends was like "Mehn Kate you've changed...I used to pray for you because I thought you'd never change and you'd be alone" *I tried to take it as a compliment*

- From my teenage years through my early 20s..I was a pretty angry, easily disillusioned chic terribly afraid of failure to the point where i figured if i never tried..then i couldn't fail. And since the last thing I'd ever want to fail at was a marriage...why try at all?

- I'm still afraid of failure..but I believe that life is about choices...I choose to love, I choose to be in love and I choose to be present in a relationship and I choose to try my hardest to make it work...and everything I can't control...I put in God's hands and TRY not to worry about it.

- The thing is...where do you draw the line with regards to compromising who you are and what you want out of life just to "make it work"?. I've been accused of being "too nice" and bottling up things just to keep the peace..but I usually can't do it for long and when I reach tipping point...it's all bad and I feel like I'm back at square one...again

- I know Love is patient, kind, does not keep record of wrongdoing...etc.
But as an evolving being, I know that I personally sometimes (unknowingly) expect my other to fill a void in my life that they cannot and are not meant to. And when they don't I get impatient and unkind and begin keeping record of wrongdoings..

Because of all these things, I sometimes feel like I'm still a work in progress and as such..not particularly ready to get married...one of my friends believes however that you're not necessarily supposed to be "perfect" before you make that commitment...and you should be able and willing to work through individual issues together in the relationship....I can dig that logic but I also feel like marriage and all that will bring on its own share of issues so why not go into it as issueless as possible. I'm definitely an advocate of premarital counseling..


I'm a slacker I know it...I should be done with my list especially since I'm done with classes so i really have nothing to study for but ...lol..i admit i actually forgot that I had a blog for a while there...

shey y'all are ok out there in Bloogville?

Deuces


ASIDE:
does anyone else get really upset when commercials get abruptly interrupted by another random one? I'm like WTH...now I want to know what exactly you were trying to sell me!!!

does anyone watch Stargate Universe:SGU?.OMG Season Finale!!!sooo good!.ok...I'm a weirdo! I get it...

You've got all that I need...

..Looking @ all or nothing
Hi peoples,

The purpose of this post is to try and be as honest as possibly without feeling overly exposed and maybe present my take on some of what I consider to be my life's "puzzling" questions at my age and how I used to rationalize the answers and what I do now without sounding too preachy.

One thing that I don't want to get lost in the possibly LONG post is something that I think strengthens me everyday...:

So you know how things always seem to be much worse at night, but the next day it seems better..even a little bit? Well I've decided that one of the reasons is because of the sun. Even on the cloudiest days you can tell day from night (except maybe in Kuwait). The sun just makes everything seem better. And as a Christian who believes that God created the sun..I am strengthened by the fact that this same God whose glory gives the sun it's light, and heat that we can feel from miles and miles away loves ME..always, regardless, more than anyone in the world ever can. And this God is for ME and has my back PERMANENTLY. Just the thought gives me a "who born dem?" attitude and makes it easier for me to get up and try again that day. And on days when this doesn't work, Psalm 139 is pretty good too.


Now...where to start.
MY STORY...

I grew up in a fairly religious home. My mom tried several times to introduce daily devotions at 6am every morning and was pretty consistent about it for a long time. Sunday school on Sundays..the whole nine. And I loved church. We also had a ton of "Holy Ghost fire" aunts and uncles pass through our home during childhood. So I had the background. I think I definitely took/take that for granted.."yes i know i should pray".."yes I know God is good".."yes i know if you sin and don't repent you are doomed to hellfire"etc. For a couple of years growing up..i think i was like 7 or 8, I used to be so fearful at night that I would die in my sleep or the world would end and I would go to hellfire"

And then you become an adult, and you leave that safety net and you're on your own and the world is there all inviting and exciting. I didn't consider myself to have ever been overly "worldly" but as there is no gray area and sin is sin...I was.

I went through this period where I just completely avoided the thought/concept of having a relationship with God because I felt that it would be out of duty..as per that's how you were raised so that's what you should do and if you don't..next exit "hellfire".

I think truthfully..It clicked for me in 2007. Before then, yes I loved God and I loved going to church and the fellowship and worship. But even then I found myself only praying consistently when I really wanted God to do something for me.

I DIGRESS: I remember once we were having some event and it started to rain..a friend's sister suggested that we pray. So i prayed..simple " Dear Lord, we would like for the rain to stop so our event will be dry and successful.In Jesus Name. Amen". She proceeded to scold me for not praying with conviction and then went on to "pray/bind and caste the devilish rain and command that it cease!" *side eye*

Anyway...what happened in 2007? IT CLICKED..i don't know how else to say it but i just finally got it. I'm not compelled to develop a relationship with God out of duty anymore..but because I love Him. I think at that point, I'd moved far far away from everything and everyone I knew and I was pretty much alone..alone with my thoughts..alone with my fears..just solo.

But I wasn't...have never been, I've always felt God's presence in my life guiding me and strengthening me. I wanted to develop my own special relationship with God that had nothing to do with the hangups from my past so I work at it. And I fail at it..and it hasn't been smooth sailing...and I'm not perfect..but I get up every morning and the darkness has been taken over by the light and I try that day to love and trust God the best I can, I try to learn about and do what makes Him happy and try not to beat myself up too much when I fall short. And I take the lessons from that day and try and move on and apply it to the next day.

This post take style long o..so I think I'm definitely going to have to split it up but these are my life questions:

My life questions..
1. What is my purpose in life?

2. Why is it so hard for me to be a good Christian?
3. What if all I've done in my life stems from one first,big mistake?
4. Where/When/How will my "tests" in life happen and can I handle them?

5. How will I know when I find the person that God has selected to be my life partner?

..song I love... I especially like 4:23 to the end..
Casting crowns.."Who am I"

10 Things I Love

lol @MPB...
*embarrassed wave to blogworld*...hi guys!! It's been ages...i've been aging like fine wine..or maybe cheese....

..speaking of cheese, have you guys seen that commercial..i think it's cheez-it..where the cheese is not yet "matured" so they keep it until it is... heeehehee..cute stuvvs

OK..on to the from MPB's blog

1. Ok I know he's not a thing..but I love my lil' nephew Ollykokoko aka Goobie aka Cookie. He's the best. Like just thinking about him fills my heart with joy and makes me smile. ***no taynement i am not obsessed and I will not go born my own..leave me**

2. Chocolate..in all forms..except with caramel...chocolate cake (best i've had so far is from cheese cake factory..with whipped cream and nuts on the side microwaved for 23 seconds). Chocolate candy bars..anything from just a regular Hershey's candy bar to ferrero rocher..roche? Hot chocolate (best i've had is from daily grind...with whipped cream :

3. Entertainment...TV, music, movies...i don't think they need an explanation. The ability to escape into something..anything for a little while...

4. My phone...gosh i promise I didnt copy MPB...i just got a new phone too with the Android OS... I LOVE THIS THING!!!...awesomeness..in my own words.. "F an iphone" and "BB is soooo lame" *rolls eyes* can't believe i considered getting anything else.

5. Books...good books that keep me entertained...books that i hope i get to start reading again soon...

6. Shopping...everything i get paid my first instinct is oooh i can buy stuff..lmao..if that is not a recipe for perpetual brokeness i dont know what is.

7. Smoothies..fruit smoothies that are more fruit than ice and do not taste artificially sweetened. Damn..i wish i could recommend some but no smoothie i've loved has come from a chain.

8. Bananas...fruits in general..but i could eat like 12 bananas a day. I buy bananas but i have to wait a day or two to eat them when they are at the peak..softly firm and ripe...plantain might count too..

9. Meat...beef, sometimes chicken or fish..but BEEF my goodness...not even steak...just nice pieces of beef. sometimes..i buy some meat from the store and cook it in my slow cooker for like 8 hours... mmmm yummy.

10. Aight..i'll be cliche and say that I love God even though ..God is not a thing. I love God because even at my worst...He loves me and loved me enough to bless me with amazing friends and family members.


That's about it folks... I was trynna blog earlier this week and encountered some technical difficulties...
Hope everyone is doing greats...kisses!

It's about to be a....

Dear Texas,
Is it safe? I feel like the birthrate and engagement rate up in that hood dikwa very very exponential oh. I can't stalk around without seeing new mommies and fiances popping up. Don't get me wrong..i love love..love is a beautiful thing and I LOVE kids!!! Am just observing. Do these people know something the rest of us don't? Or maybe it's just that age aye?

Dear Girl-who-caught-herself-trying-to-mess-with-me..aka roommate from hell,
*laughs quietly to self while shaking her head*...I mean see me see trouble o! You spilled coffee on the carpet..ok...accidents happen. Didn't clean it for weeks...ok. Your mom is supposed to have KABOOM at home straight from AsSeenOnTv. Great. Your ass went home and forgot to bring it...that's cool too.
Me: "maybe you should try regular detergent, it works fine too"
Dumbass: "yeah..my mom will just get the cleaner..what is the big deal"
Me: the big deal is it's been there 3 weeks and you did not bring the cleaner like you said and i have to look at it
Dumbass: Well that's too bad i'm not cleaning it before the exam *slams door*
Me: *sees red*

Heeeeeeeeee My GOODNESS! a whole me? seriously...seriously? This chick...I dont even know how i held my tongue. And the bad thing...bad for her..is i dont even LIKE the chick!! This chick doesn't know that I'm up on my bad girls club ish and i will readily melt butter into her egg whites/olive oil into her fat free dressing/sugar in her oatmeal/lock her bathroom and room from the inside/turn of all the electricity in her portion of the house/change the wi-fi password/put beef stock in her food (she's indian).
She should try me again!

I know i should be on some WWJD stuff but mehn..something has to be done.



Dear Michelle Tratchenberg,
LMAO!! this was actually good!! made my day. No more buffy's lil sister huh!



Fin.