Friday, December 7, 2007
FIOMS!
Today is my sis's birthday..she is all of 28 years old!!! Wow. She will never find this blog i hope..so i can freely say that I'm soooper proud of her and everything she hsa accomplished. We were talking about how she was the experimental child when we first moved here and how she had to go thru everything...from working at waffle house, to having to take the SAT twice because my know-nothing-good-for-nothing uncle said her scores weren't good enough to go to college. To going to community college to changing from accounting to medicine...to taking a year off after college to work before going to med school..to med school...to being a 1st year resident WHAT WHAT!!!! She makes me soo proud and i love her...she is my shero!
Marking it down...to learninnng
I remember when my life could be describe by a song on Matchbox Twenty's "Mad Season" . Those days when i never thought i'd make it. College was hard. Not as bad as high school. I cant find my high school journal :(. But i found my college one..and i was reminscing...let me see if i can find a good throwback joint!
September 3rd,2003
The hardest thing for me to do, my downfall HUMILITY..I guess I have to work on that but for someone to think that i should feel privileged to have them as my friend is really hard to swallow. I guess in some cases, i do that too. I feel like the friend that has to beg to be included in everything. I mean there has to be one in every group. I just didnt imagine it would be me. Friend, that's a funny work. How do loners cope? I forget, I mean, I wish I could do it and I probably could. I'll try it this week maybe. When your friends make you feel liek crap, what do you do? Get new ones. But it's so hard for me, especially when my friends are the ones causing me grief. I meant to say it's hard for me to make new friends. And you thingk you're the only on that gets hurt right? Not knowing you hurt me more. But what can you do? I mean i cant be anyone but me and neither can you. I should first start by saying tht I feel extremely stupid for this. But when i heard that we were going skating with them Abimbola, I perked up. Big mistake because i usually set myself up for a huge, huge disappointment. I should know better, really...I mean you cant be anyone else no matter how much I would like you to be. Yet i remain the hopeless optimist i am. Dreamer! I guess I'm slowly realizing this and slowly letting go so I'm going thru withdrawal. IT SUCKS. YEsterday was typical of my life. Usual disappointments all round. You would think i'm the most depressed person on earth right?
September 3rd,2003
The hardest thing for me to do, my downfall HUMILITY..I guess I have to work on that but for someone to think that i should feel privileged to have them as my friend is really hard to swallow. I guess in some cases, i do that too. I feel like the friend that has to beg to be included in everything. I mean there has to be one in every group. I just didnt imagine it would be me. Friend, that's a funny work. How do loners cope? I forget, I mean, I wish I could do it and I probably could. I'll try it this week maybe. When your friends make you feel liek crap, what do you do? Get new ones. But it's so hard for me, especially when my friends are the ones causing me grief. I meant to say it's hard for me to make new friends. And you thingk you're the only on that gets hurt right? Not knowing you hurt me more. But what can you do? I mean i cant be anyone but me and neither can you. I should first start by saying tht I feel extremely stupid for this. But when i heard that we were going skating with them Abimbola, I perked up. Big mistake because i usually set myself up for a huge, huge disappointment. I should know better, really...I mean you cant be anyone else no matter how much I would like you to be. Yet i remain the hopeless optimist i am. Dreamer! I guess I'm slowly realizing this and slowly letting go so I'm going thru withdrawal. IT SUCKS. YEsterday was typical of my life. Usual disappointments all round. You would think i'm the most depressed person on earth right?
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Till Death...
Damn yo! I haven't been here in a minute!!!
Today, we shall focus on marriage!!
Due to the large mad dash for the altar happening around me recently...
These ppl are older than me granted...but not by that much?
Is that what it feels like to be SURE...or are some ppl doing it just cuz, it's the right time and marriage is the right thing to do?
Arent' these people afraid?
At what moment in time do you move from being scared to being sure?
Is there a balance?
When does surety supercede fear?
Do people realize this?
Me sha o, i'm still scared.
This is not school where you study and study and expect to pass
or work where you work and work and expect things to go smoothly
when someone elses emotions and personality and quirks and issues are thrown into the mix it all becomes very dicey.
Will i ever NOT be scared?
I feel like i've come along way from being selfish and so quick to call it quits to being more open and patient and willing to put in the work to make it work..
but i still have issues...
Sooo not ready...is anyone ever ready?
Seriously, do ppl realize till death us do part?
Today, we shall focus on marriage!!
Due to the large mad dash for the altar happening around me recently...
These ppl are older than me granted...but not by that much?
Is that what it feels like to be SURE...or are some ppl doing it just cuz, it's the right time and marriage is the right thing to do?
Arent' these people afraid?
At what moment in time do you move from being scared to being sure?
Is there a balance?
When does surety supercede fear?
Do people realize this?
Me sha o, i'm still scared.
This is not school where you study and study and expect to pass
or work where you work and work and expect things to go smoothly
when someone elses emotions and personality and quirks and issues are thrown into the mix it all becomes very dicey.
Will i ever NOT be scared?
I feel like i've come along way from being selfish and so quick to call it quits to being more open and patient and willing to put in the work to make it work..
but i still have issues...
Sooo not ready...is anyone ever ready?
Seriously, do ppl realize till death us do part?
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Boys and Girls
So...once again i was watching The Life of Ryan and marveling at my girl crush Taylor and i determined that there are two types of girls....as far as interactions with boys go..
The cool girls
The not so cool girls
I think i'm a not so cool girl...sadly, but it's ok. My theory is that your exposure to the opposite sex at a young age determines your relationship with boys. I think that girls with brothers, have a better relationship with boys that girls without.
For example...for a while there growing up, i was terrified of boys. Even through high school now that i think about it... i thought they were trouble and that we had nothing in common. Obviously, that has changed as i develop into the lady that I am. But sometimes i think my life would have been much easier if i were a cool girl..
Cool girls are always comfortable around guys.
Sidenote: ok seriously, when did Peter Berg become a director? A good one no less...like the last time i saw him, i was like who is this tom cruise wannabe trynna act? Now dude is off directing good movies like The Kingdom...i wanna be a director!!!!
Anyways, back to the matter at hand. Cool girls and the ones you see having a regualr conversation about anything with guys. I'm slightly jealous of them.
To Be Continued
The cool girls
The not so cool girls
I think i'm a not so cool girl...sadly, but it's ok. My theory is that your exposure to the opposite sex at a young age determines your relationship with boys. I think that girls with brothers, have a better relationship with boys that girls without.
For example...for a while there growing up, i was terrified of boys. Even through high school now that i think about it... i thought they were trouble and that we had nothing in common. Obviously, that has changed as i develop into the lady that I am. But sometimes i think my life would have been much easier if i were a cool girl..
Cool girls are always comfortable around guys.
Sidenote: ok seriously, when did Peter Berg become a director? A good one no less...like the last time i saw him, i was like who is this tom cruise wannabe trynna act? Now dude is off directing good movies like The Kingdom...i wanna be a director!!!!
Anyways, back to the matter at hand. Cool girls and the ones you see having a regualr conversation about anything with guys. I'm slightly jealous of them.
To Be Continued
The Taylor- Ryan Dynamic
Obviously, because my life is centered around TV, and art imitates life...i have to see parallels between Taylor and Ryan's friendship(Life of Ryan on MTV) and relationships between guys and girls.
Taylor is a girl, Ryan's friend/counselor and what not...she is SO cool and SO mature for her age, but that's a post for another day. I officially have a girl crush on her :)
Anyways... so the age old question related to the dynamic is this: "Can girls and boys really, truly be just friends?"
Honestly, I think it depends on the people but for the most part, I'm going to say NO!! Because
a) First impressions count a lot
So, let's say you get introduced to some guy, and he doesn't present himself well, obviously...you won't consider the person someone you'd want to date. However, if upon meeting the person, they go all out to try and impress you etc etc and then when they get the impression that you are not interested, they try to be your friend. Y'all Cannot be friends because somewhere in the back of their minds they are hoping for more.
b) Your status when you meet said friend is crucial
You meet said person through a friend, maybe even your boyfriend. If first impression is good..a la a, then it's easy for you to become friends, and just friends depending on how serious you/your relationship are/is. The problem starts if after this encounter, you both become single and are still close...because then it starts to create notions of "we're cool, we're close...what if?" These questions will ultimately need to be answered.
c) Feelings change/grow
This could be like an old friend, a friend of a friend someone who used to be in your life,who reenters it after a long absence. Especially childhood friends. The history is already there. If they happen to be cool/your type, then it's like you know maybe this might work...the new friendship is built on old memories and new feelings and you sometimes feel you've known the person forever. NO, y'all are not JUST friends.You might be just friends with someone because you/they are not ready for a relationship, or willing to take the risk.
d) Taylor is cool
Just had to reiterate.
So...why are Taylor and Ryan "just friends"? I think she's dating Casey...Ryan's best friend..so obviously. But so far with all the rifraff in his life, she seems the most level headed, ultra cool person, perfect fit for him...i'm saying they should be together jare!!
Taylor is a girl, Ryan's friend/counselor and what not...she is SO cool and SO mature for her age, but that's a post for another day. I officially have a girl crush on her :)
Anyways... so the age old question related to the dynamic is this: "Can girls and boys really, truly be just friends?"
Honestly, I think it depends on the people but for the most part, I'm going to say NO!! Because
a) First impressions count a lot
So, let's say you get introduced to some guy, and he doesn't present himself well, obviously...you won't consider the person someone you'd want to date. However, if upon meeting the person, they go all out to try and impress you etc etc and then when they get the impression that you are not interested, they try to be your friend. Y'all Cannot be friends because somewhere in the back of their minds they are hoping for more.
b) Your status when you meet said friend is crucial
You meet said person through a friend, maybe even your boyfriend. If first impression is good..a la a, then it's easy for you to become friends, and just friends depending on how serious you/your relationship are/is. The problem starts if after this encounter, you both become single and are still close...because then it starts to create notions of "we're cool, we're close...what if?" These questions will ultimately need to be answered.
c) Feelings change/grow
This could be like an old friend, a friend of a friend someone who used to be in your life,who reenters it after a long absence. Especially childhood friends. The history is already there. If they happen to be cool/your type, then it's like you know maybe this might work...the new friendship is built on old memories and new feelings and you sometimes feel you've known the person forever. NO, y'all are not JUST friends.You might be just friends with someone because you/they are not ready for a relationship, or willing to take the risk.
d) Taylor is cool
Just had to reiterate.
So...why are Taylor and Ryan "just friends"? I think she's dating Casey...Ryan's best friend..so obviously. But so far with all the rifraff in his life, she seems the most level headed, ultra cool person, perfect fit for him...i'm saying they should be together jare!!
Thursday, September 20, 2007
I promise to start back blogging again...it's sooooooo hard...i feel like i have nothing to sayyyy!!!
So i'll start by memeing...slowly but surely..
Accent: Nigerian w/ a twinge of american.
Booze: good wine
Chore I Hate: cleaning.. i have to be in the mood.
Dogs/Cats: Dogs, cats suck
Essential electronics: Laptop, TV, mp3 player
Favourite Perfume: Sheer by Stella Mccartney
Gold/Silver: Silver
Hometown: Anytown, Naija
Insomnia: No, thanks
Job title: biopharma
Kids: None
Living arrangements:apartment
Most admired trait: hmmm.... my attitude towards life? Is that a trait.
Number of sexual partners: Nonya!
Overnight hospital stays: None to date, Thank God.
Phobia: heightophobia
Quote: "Dont let yesterday, determine your tomorrow..." - I don't know who
Religion: Christian.
Siblings: 3
Time I usually awake: 6:30am
Unusual talent: i can almost flip my tongue 360 degress.
Vegetable I refuse to eat: Beets...nasty stuff!
Worst habit: i dunno...thinking about the worst case scenario in all situations?
X-rays: Yes,
Yummy foods I make: I make good rice...i'm still building my repertoire!!
Zodiac sign: aries
So i'll start by memeing...slowly but surely..
Accent: Nigerian w/ a twinge of american.
Booze: good wine
Chore I Hate: cleaning.. i have to be in the mood.
Dogs/Cats: Dogs, cats suck
Essential electronics: Laptop, TV, mp3 player
Favourite Perfume: Sheer by Stella Mccartney
Gold/Silver: Silver
Hometown: Anytown, Naija
Insomnia: No, thanks
Job title: biopharma
Kids: None
Living arrangements:apartment
Most admired trait: hmmm.... my attitude towards life? Is that a trait.
Number of sexual partners: Nonya!
Overnight hospital stays: None to date, Thank God.
Phobia: heightophobia
Quote: "Dont let yesterday, determine your tomorrow..." - I don't know who
Religion: Christian.
Siblings: 3
Time I usually awake: 6:30am
Unusual talent: i can almost flip my tongue 360 degress.
Vegetable I refuse to eat: Beets...nasty stuff!
Worst habit: i dunno...thinking about the worst case scenario in all situations?
X-rays: Yes,
Yummy foods I make: I make good rice...i'm still building my repertoire!!
Zodiac sign: aries
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
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