Gotta do a birthday blog!!

I'm a big fan of birthdays...mine especially..always have been
But today went by too fast.
my parents sent me the cutest card..too sweet...i cried
And my coworkers surprised me with cake and flowers..i cried
I aint no punk tho! *flexes mozzu*

My thing about my birthday is...i'm not a gift person per se..i dont usually know/get what i want but i appreciate gifts... I like calls...and messages.

On this birthday..i'm thankful
I know ppl die everyday..I'm thankful for my life. I almost didn't make it to 26 and that fact just hit me...so Thank you God for my life.
I'm thankful for my family...and my awesome nephew...love him!!!
I'm thankful for my friends...all of em...everyone of em.
I'm thankful for my coworkers...dunno what i did to deserve such an awesome first job.
I'm thankful for my luckybugga
I'm thankful for my birthday mates
I'm thankful for chocolate
I'm thankful for internet..and music...and tv
I'm thankful for Keanu Reeves
I'm thankful for Obama
I'm thankful for ME :)

13 of my favorite bars....kinda

what part of our history's reinvented and under rug swept?
what part of your memory is selective and tends to forget?
what with this distance it seems so obvious?
-Hands Clean

If you could read my mind love,
what a tale my thoughts would tell.
Just like a paperback novel,
the kind the drugstore sells.
and when you reach the part where the heartache
comes the hero would be you.
Heroes often fail.
Stars on 54

Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would bring me back to you
Sunday Morning

So what, so I've got a smile on me
but it's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
Don't believe me
Don't believe me
When I say I've got it down
John Mayer

Got everybody watchin what I do
Come walk in my shoes
And see the way I'm livin if you really want to
Got my mind on my money
And I'm not goin nowhere
Live your life

When I fall in love I take my time
There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you why
The Remedy

I have lost the dignity i had before
Trying to please everybody
Lucky Dube

I'ma do some'ing bad to ya, disrespect your set talk trash to ya
And if you get out of line, I'ma bring it quick fast to ya
Smash your head, in the concrete
And H-Town Stomp, your bitch ass to the beat
Till they see the white meat, for playing games with my gang
Slim Thug

Is it wrong for me to feel this way, you been running through my mind all day
Can you feel me?
I been tryna get you off my mind, but I cant after all this time
When iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!
T-pain

If your love could be caged, honey, I would hold the key
And conceal it underneath the pile of lies you handed me
And you'd hunt and those lies
They'd be all you'd ever find
And that'd be all you'd have to know
For me to be fine
Cry

Does anyone know...What love can cost
To take you so high..Then leave you lost
Is it a mystery..That runs too deep
For such a simple heart
Hall and Oates

Finally the tables are starting to turn
Talking 'bout a revolution..
Tracy Chapman

When the storm rises up, when the shadows descend
Ev'ry beat of my heart, ev'ry day without end
I will stand like a rock, I will bend till I break
Till there's no more to give, if that's what it takes
I will risk everything, I will fight, I will bleed
I will lay down my life, if that's what you need
Through the wind and the rain, through the smoke and the fire
When the fear rises up, when the wave's ever higher
I will lay down my heart, my body, my soul
I will hold on all night and never let go
Ev'ry second I live, that's the promise I make
Baby, that's what I'll give, if that's what it takes
Celine

Honest Crap

1. I hate taking showers after people...when I was younger I would cry if anyone got in the shower before me.
2. I memorize numbers easily.. internet access codes for hotels..numerical passwords..account numbers...license plate numbers..
3. I can be a loner one minute and a social butterfly the next.
4. I dont buy into that whole..I can't stand girls..guys are better friends deal, but I don't have that many girlfriends
5. I have managed to remain good friends with my exes' best friends but can/have gone years without talking to or inquiring about the exes.
6. I cant swim...been meaning to learn for the longest time
7. I've never watched from beginning to end: Titanic, Forest Gump or any of the Godfathers but I've watched Jurassic Park III uncountable times and Zathura is one of my favorite movies :D
8. I sing/reenact commercials in my head when i'm walking..like the ziploc one: Erica!! Handy!! Chilly!! Economical!
9. I don't like cooking for myself or consider myself to be a great cook but when i'm not trying..my stuvvs comes out pretty good.
10. When i'm working on something that doesnt require much concentration..i quote simpsons episodes in my head....
Homer: No beer and no tv make homer go something something
Marge: Go crazy?
Homer: Don't mind if i do!! Oooohhhh Ahhhhh Eeeeee Ooooo Walla Walla... :D
crap!!

Change

They must often change, who would be constant in happiness and wisdom" -- Confucius
**Dedicated to you**
One of my favorite quotes.

I consider myself to be very accommodating of change, and I think that I've changed some in the past three years.
Change was moving from Plateau state to Lagos state at 8: I think I was way too young to take stock of how that affected me as a person.
Change was moving from Lagos to Texas at 13: That was hard...fitting in to high school, well trying to at the age when kids/teenagers are so cruel and unwelcoming. High school had to be some of the worst years of my life. Coupled with becoming a teenager and all those hormones...I remember locking myself in my room a lot and getting into hard rock..lol. I'm glad my parents allowed me to have my own room where i could just brood and be dark. TV was my best friend..i would lose myself in Dawson's Creek and Felicity and Buffy and Angel...i learned to enjoy/crave my alone time.
Change was going off to college: some of the best years of my life. Meeting the most awesomely amazing people. Warm, open, friends for life type opening people. "Dating"...lol if you could call it that. Trying to grasp the fact that people want to be friends with me..people actually care about me. Real friends...real boyfriends. I think most of my lifelong friends are friends I made in college. Loves them!!
Change was moving thousands of miles away from all that after college: So far, the most exciting and revealing change i think I've experienced so far. Being completely removed from my comfort zone..by choice i think has enabled me to see myself in a different light sometimes. Not always good, not always easy but I think I've been through some things that make me feel like I can make it through almost anything.

So...change is coming again..soon. My initial reaction is excitement...I can't wait to see what the future holds, but that of course is closely followed by fear of the unknown...what if I'm making a mistake? what if it doesn't work out? I think what fuels me further is that staying also elicits the same what if questions. what if i stay? What will happen to me three years from now?
Still I want to be constant in wisdom and happiness so change i must..change I will embrace.

Closing Time...

...Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end..."- Semisonic

W-I-P

Sometimes all I have to go on
Is the way I feel when I'm with you
Cuz when i'm not with you
I feel like we're worlds apart

Don't call it a comeback..

..I've been here before *dances and shimmies*

Hello Blogworld!!
So i've been out of commission for a minute...mainly because I've been a lazy bum, then my laptop just up and quit me. Can you imagine? I was cut off from the world essentially for almost two weeks. Not just that but all my music/videos/pictures/ahem...borrowed software is locked away in my old lappie taunting me!!
Can i just say that i was totally naive about this itunes stuff...smh. Aight Apple..this is how you want to play me?...this is why I'M A PC and I'm pissed at apple! I hate you! :(
Have I missed a lot?
What did i to with my time off you ask? Good stuff
I started working out again/back on that sensible eating grind and um... the jury is out till June!!
I think I spent more time at work...barf!!
I read more/studied more
I discovered that I'm actually patient enough to surf the web when necessary on my phone. That's how desperate I was.
Oooh oohh...I watched a lot more tv than usual... I actually watched RuPaul's Drag Race...from begining to end!! It was amazing to say the least. I mean seriously!! Drag Queens competing to be the Next RuPaul. I was transfixed...couldn't stop watching.
I was also apparently on some bs/acting out/throwing a tantrum but as God would have it, my boobookins is/was very accomodating sometimes. :D
But I'm back i think, and having turned on the voices in my head; I'll hopefully be blogging more frequently.
So Blogworld...what's new? What'd i miss?