Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Goals...Distractions...Self

It's only been three days but it feels like an eternity
Still a little hurt, more confused...more in doubt.
I dont know if I/We made the right decision.
But I believe that everything happens for a reason
And that things work out the way they're meant to.

I think i really need to focus on myself mentally,emotionally,physically and spiritually
But i'm finding it's really not that easy (no duh!)
Physically, my focus has been pretty good so far...can't wait to see actual results!
Mentally..as per work..i really need to get more knowledge and experience under my belt.
Emotionally..ok fine, right now emotionally i'm a wreck which is why i try to find other ways to distract myself...I can get through work...and thank God for my roommate...and TV..then it's sleep but for the first time, i'm actually seriously considering seeing a shrink (shut up!) If that isn't the epitome of being americanized!! sighs....
Even before, I've always kinda known i need to sort out my emotions, not doing so usually does more harm than good in the long run.
Spiritually..I'm a disgrace..that's pretty much all i can say about that. I started reading proverbs and i felt like my life is just like some equipment that was put together wrong because the instruction manual wasn't read first. Luckily for us...we get do-overs...and I know I've gotten a million times more than I deserve.

If for no other reason..I'm really not getting any younger and I'm wasting my life away, so I dont have many chances at do-overs yet. And each distraction draws me further back than the one before.
I need to stick to it...
~~~coming soon~~~
My little cousin Grace was singing this song incessantly for one whole day and when i figured out what she was singing and listened to the words...they wrote it for me.

1 comment:

KreativeMix said...

focusing on you is great!!!