Change

They must often change, who would be constant in happiness and wisdom" -- Confucius
**Dedicated to you**
One of my favorite quotes.

I consider myself to be very accommodating of change, and I think that I've changed some in the past three years.
Change was moving from Plateau state to Lagos state at 8: I think I was way too young to take stock of how that affected me as a person.
Change was moving from Lagos to Texas at 13: That was hard...fitting in to high school, well trying to at the age when kids/teenagers are so cruel and unwelcoming. High school had to be some of the worst years of my life. Coupled with becoming a teenager and all those hormones...I remember locking myself in my room a lot and getting into hard rock..lol. I'm glad my parents allowed me to have my own room where i could just brood and be dark. TV was my best friend..i would lose myself in Dawson's Creek and Felicity and Buffy and Angel...i learned to enjoy/crave my alone time.
Change was going off to college: some of the best years of my life. Meeting the most awesomely amazing people. Warm, open, friends for life type opening people. "Dating"...lol if you could call it that. Trying to grasp the fact that people want to be friends with me..people actually care about me. Real friends...real boyfriends. I think most of my lifelong friends are friends I made in college. Loves them!!
Change was moving thousands of miles away from all that after college: So far, the most exciting and revealing change i think I've experienced so far. Being completely removed from my comfort zone..by choice i think has enabled me to see myself in a different light sometimes. Not always good, not always easy but I think I've been through some things that make me feel like I can make it through almost anything.

So...change is coming again..soon. My initial reaction is excitement...I can't wait to see what the future holds, but that of course is closely followed by fear of the unknown...what if I'm making a mistake? what if it doesn't work out? I think what fuels me further is that staying also elicits the same what if questions. what if i stay? What will happen to me three years from now?
Still I want to be constant in wisdom and happiness so change i must..change I will embrace.

Closing Time...

...Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end..."- Semisonic

W-I-P

Sometimes all I have to go on
Is the way I feel when I'm with you
Cuz when i'm not with you
I feel like we're worlds apart

Don't call it a comeback..

..I've been here before *dances and shimmies*

Hello Blogworld!!
So i've been out of commission for a minute...mainly because I've been a lazy bum, then my laptop just up and quit me. Can you imagine? I was cut off from the world essentially for almost two weeks. Not just that but all my music/videos/pictures/ahem...borrowed software is locked away in my old lappie taunting me!!
Can i just say that i was totally naive about this itunes stuff...smh. Aight Apple..this is how you want to play me?...this is why I'M A PC and I'm pissed at apple! I hate you! :(
Have I missed a lot?
What did i to with my time off you ask? Good stuff
I started working out again/back on that sensible eating grind and um... the jury is out till June!!
I think I spent more time at work...barf!!
I read more/studied more
I discovered that I'm actually patient enough to surf the web when necessary on my phone. That's how desperate I was.
Oooh oohh...I watched a lot more tv than usual... I actually watched RuPaul's Drag Race...from begining to end!! It was amazing to say the least. I mean seriously!! Drag Queens competing to be the Next RuPaul. I was transfixed...couldn't stop watching.
I was also apparently on some bs/acting out/throwing a tantrum but as God would have it, my boobookins is/was very accomodating sometimes. :D
But I'm back i think, and having turned on the voices in my head; I'll hopefully be blogging more frequently.
So Blogworld...what's new? What'd i miss?

My Birthday Wishlist

I have a couple of minutes before my western is ready to develop....and i am computerless at home. BOO HOO... :(.
Anyhoo..it hit me today that i'm about to turn the big 2-oh no-6 but this time, i actually have stuff i want/ need for my birthday!! yay!! so...here they go
1.
by James Watson...who is a surprisingly good author...dunno why i was surprised..the man is a genius!! did you know that Orson Wells..Welles? is his uncle?..yeah me either..hmm..
2. The Double Helix..also by James Watson
3.
The Actual book AND the problems book.. :D thank um
4. Cuz my computer died...the lil biyatch..all my stuff is trapped all inside especially my music and my fabulous microsoft office...which i think i can get back..but not my music!! and my pictures!! i have tons of pictures!! :(...the geeksquat--no typo wants to charge me like 200 bucks to get my info out...maybe i should ask IT... sha..dell has this thingie...it's sha $90. I tried to find a picture i can't...trust me!
i'll be back with more!

We're rocking the suburbs!!

Just saw Revolutionary Road

*SPOILER ALERT*--if you haven't watched..um..avert your eyes.--
Don't know whether to shoot myself or make a pact never to move to the suburbs
On the one hand, I think April was definitely not chemically balanced
But on the other hand, I could see where she was coming from..kinda

Back then,the man was the sole breadwinner and the woman was supposed to pop them kids out and keep the house.
But the thing about it is... I'm sure even today when both man and woman can work and still have their house in the 'burbs and their 2.5kids and a dog, I'm sure there are millions of families out there that feel trapped, unfulfilled...hopelessly empty?

I can't get over how he told her he'd cheated..like.."OK i cheated but I'm done now..what's for dinner?"
And when he was leaving...he knew..knew there was something wrong but he pretended that everything was fine.

I don't think Paris would have solved anything anyway..just maybe delayed the inevitable...

Me personally...i would love to live my life without regrets..knowing that at any point in my life..i was fulfilled at doing what I'm meant to be doing. Completely in that moment..be it pursuing (purshooing :D) my career or going to school...or being a wife, being a mother..being an aunt, being a friend, being a sister, being a daughter by God's grace.
Life, Love and the pursuit of happiness ko easy o!

aside..does anyone else notice how i use "..." too much or is it just me?...guess it's just me :D.. paix!

Here's my all time favorite songs

Damn IE i lost like 29 songs...but d'ah well

All time faves..version 1.0