Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas

Soooooo...all my bags are packed
ready to go
i'm standing here outside the door
i hate to wake you up to say goodbye

I'm leaving on a jetplane
I know that i'll be back again
But babe, I hate to go-oh-oh-oh-oh :)

This year has been very blessed for me and my family.
New Job
New Car
lots of changes

But I cant help but look forward to 2007...turning 24. Growing more into myself. For once i'm not making any resolutions. I dunno why, I guess maybe cause i no longer feel like i have to wait till a new year to resolve to do something.

So bloggie dearest...Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. I'm going to miss you. And you (yes the off chance that u stumble upon this :) wish i had more time to blog. 15th huh? :)

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

The Madness ;)

Dear Bloggie,
Have you ever had that totally unexpected,indescribable connection maybe to another blog :)? So indescribable that you have a hard time putting it into words? I guess not cuz you're just a blog, but it's a crazy feeling i tell ya..maybe someday i'll be able to but I don't feel like sharing this with's mine i tell you..all mine! Which is why i'm here blogging about basketball when i know i really want to be blogging about something else..:dreamer:, apparently we haven't learnt anything from the whole detroit/indiana fight cuz here we go again. I know I'm late with all this but I cant really talk until i hear wat they punishment is can i? :)
Basketball Losers
1. Isiah Thomas: supposed to be a coach, supposed to be the one that hopefully pulls the team together..this lil' fool instigated the whole thing talking about "it wouldn't be a good idea to go anywhere near the paint" to carmelo. It just sucks that he didnt get punished for what he did. And then at the end of the day he's commenting about how the nuggets were already up and didn't need to leave their starters in the game. Why can't u just take your whupping like a grown ass man, acting like this is the first game that they are losing.
2. Carmelo Anthony: I know, i know, testosterone plus adrenaline plus steroids (yes i said it!! :D) make a bad combination, but can i get you to practice some sort of restraint...oh at least stand like a man and fight, don't hit and run next time mmkay, you should have been fined an extra 5 games without pay for running like a lil punk.
3. Mardy Collins: be proud of yourself cause the only reason I know your name is because u are a troublemaker...bitter doesn't look good on anybody, there was no reason for you to foul ol' dude like that..stewpid!
4. The rest of the fighters...i guess it helped boost team morale cuz they both won their next games but still...can we try to be part of the solution not the problem?

Basketball winners
1. George Karl: according to him, his reason for keeping 4 starters in the game was because his team was still learning how to win on the road and he had seen other teams give up double digit leads and all that stuff. Maybe he did it out of spite or whatever but if you don't want to get beat..STEP YO GAME UP!! I can see why the knicks would be upset..I mean, yes I admit it, I cry when the Mavs lose. Speaking of the Mavs.

2. My baby D-I-R-K and Josh Howard: are like totally awesome, like totally. Best believe I'm the first one to curse them out when the lose, and I threatened divorce after last year's finals..but after counseling, we were ok until those four straight losses..but now I think, we're definitely back on the right track. :) I love me some about 29 points and 13 rebounds...and Josh Howards 28 points..that's freaking FIRE!! (SHUT UP KOBE FANS!!).
3. Chris Paul and Dwayne Wade: yes i'm a sore loser, yes i wanted them to lose to us and yes i changed my car's name from dwyane to chico after they won but I can acknowledge and appreciate talent and humilty when i see it...and I do infact love dwyane wade as a player and as a person (like i know him..LOL!!). So anyway, after the game, close game the cutest thing happened..Dwyane gave Chris a hug and a kiss(a totally ungay kiss!) AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW :). I fell in loff all over again!

Thursday, December 14, 2006


date1 /deɪt/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[deyt] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation noun, verb, dat·ed, dat·ing.
a social appointment, engagement, or occasion arranged beforehand with another person: to go out on a date on Saturday night. I mostly write about the past and stuff that I'm totally comfortable with ppl knowing about me and not much about the present and the future but I was thinking about this today and I've like so totally only been on like two dates. As far as guys go, there have been to date five serious,serious and I-dunno-wat-to-call-it relationships. The serious are Ex #1 and Ex #2. The first I-dunno-wat-to-call-it was HWNSNBM(see posts from archive! double sigh). The second one was one of the indiscretions of my youth and while i sometimes feel bad about it, i often don't because it was a lesson, you learn from it and you move on..maybe someday i'll write about it!! Wow. The third and most recent one I kinda dont really want to talk about but is the reason for this whole post in the first place...let's just say I think i'm making it out to be more complicated that is probably is..but I'm a girl mayne, it's wat i do.
So anyways..Ex #1 and Ex #2 were both long distance relationships..started online kinda (SHARRAP!) so we never went on dates per say. HWNSNBM..i dunno what you would call what we had but dates according to dictionary definition..those were dates. We went to the movies and even to dinner once..i remember...Chili's, I had the boneless buffalo wings..anyways. The second IDWTCT asked me out once, but stood me up..go figure! Like I was the one doing the chasing..*rolls eyes*.
My whole point..this third IDWTCT, another story for another day(this one i'll definitely tell because it's really quite innocent and I only have the best intentions for this person(even if it's clouded with brief bouts of slight craziness in my head..damn hormones). So this third IDWTCT is actually the first person to in then traditional american sense of the word call me up and ask me out to the movies (as friends of course). I was extremely tickled because, fine i'll admit it..huge gigantor crush..and y'all know how my crushes turn out..see the possibility that IDWTCT the III might actually harbor even the minutest ounce iota neutrino of thingies (cant call it feelings cuz i'm still lying to myself about that) for me..scary ish right there!
So anyways, had a convo with IDWTCT the III the other day and it went like this
IDWTCT the III: so when r u getting back
Kate: 21st
IDWTCT the III: you got anything planned
Kate: no, jus packing and chilling
and then I went off topic for some reason
IDWTCT the III: So you got any free time before you go?
Kate: prolly, it shouldn't take me long to pack
IDWTCT the III: you wanna maybe go out to dinner sometime, if you're free?
Kate: Sure, that would be cool
Kate's crushomatic brain cells: OMG OMG OMG...victory lap around the skull!!! YES!!
Kate's logical/cautious brain cells: WTH? wat does this mean? Is this like a date date or like a friend hang out thing? What should i treat it as?
Kate's crushomatic brain cells:OMG wat am i going to wear? Thank God i get paid on the 22nd, I can go shopping and get my hair and nails did!
Kate's logical/cautious brain cells:sensory overload!!! Must call friend for interpretation.

I've learned in life never to assume anything especially when dealing with dudes so I make no assumptions until stuff is spelled out properly for me. But I'm kinda nervous tho cuz I'm not even remotely ready for anything serious at all right less of long distance. There I go making assumptions...i'ma just let it be for now!! Empty out my brain...whoooooooossssssssssaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Things that annoy me!!!

Angelina Jolie
Ok, I haven't read it but I believe the news..she has a new interview in vogue where she talks about her relationship with Brad Pitt and how nothing happened till after they split up and blah di blah. First of all you blood lusting bad acting puffer know that that is a freaking lie but it's all good, Karma is a mutha and it's going to come back and haunt you. And you Brad, don't even think I'm heaping all the blame on this bush rat because I'm coming for you and it's not going to be pretty! I can't wait for their kids to grow up I hope they wipe them dry and leave them broke and desolate (sue me, I'm wicked and vindictive :o). And then to add insult to injury, Lil miss nasty heifer says she would sit and talk with my Jenjen if Jenjen requests it. I hope in some parallel universe you can legally put out a hit on someone cuz I'm sure my parallel universe self would have taken out one on said fool! I wonder what Jennifer Aniston thinks about this. Sometimes I wish I could be other ppl in this case Jenjen just to know what she is thinking. Wat does Angelina want? She wants her to be Godmother? That woman has gone of the deep end. Should have married Tom Cruise...speaking of Crazy Cruise..guess wat else annoys me?

Crazie Cruise
Yep, you guessed it. I'm sorry but personally, this fool was never that good of an actor...then you want to prance around like a rabid raccoon jumping on ppls couches and rattling off at the mouth about other peoples problems..Negro puhlease. I just cant wait for the divorce (not that i wish it for them) 9 years and 2 months from now after the magic scientology spell wears off Katie Holmes (speaking of which, I catch reruns of dawson's creek some mornings...Dawson Leery was such a freaking pansy my GOD..and bumpta*that means ugly* too! now Pacey was not half bad).

The Grammy's
Ok, I understand that forget it, me i don't understand anything. I haven't even seen the full nominations on account of that I'm so totally boycotting the Grammys from now on, but they did not nominate Nickelback and yet the Pussycat Dolls can be nominated. Wat is really going on? I think the grammys be doing stuff for all the wrong reasons(rimshot)..get it? get it? hee hee. Ah..forget it! Anyway...Nickelback, you win all the grammys in my heart.

Brad Pitt
Don't think I forgot about this LOO-SER! Trailer trash from Oklahoma!.To leave your wife and alleged best friend for some trifling heifer!. In short you don't deserve my good riddance to bad rubbish. Sooo unsexy! And then you now think that all your supposed humanitarian work is somehow supposed to atone for breaking vows you made before God and sir, are the lowest of the lows..nothing you can do will ever compensate for being a crackhead loser. Expect for your movies to tank from now on...cuz i surely will not be paying for them! :p, FOOL!

George Bush
Seeing as he abolished Haebus Corpus, I don't doubt he can do the same to visa lottery and naturalised citizens so I'ma keep mum on this one. But all i can say is "You're on notice, monkey man and you get two wags of the finger for being wack!".

Stupid drivers on the road that wont let me merge! Look fool...if my trafficators are on and i need to exit. Either speed up or slow down and let me by...I can kill a negro for this! Thank God for America and it's strict laws on gun control (psyche!)

Stupid ppl in general
-the cops that shot into a car fifty times
-the obviously deranged mother that microwaved her baby
-the other wife of satan that threw her baby out of the window
-the mavericks when they lose
I mean the list could go on...can we attempt less stupidity and use whatever brain cells we have left to try and be logical human beings? I mean is it really that hard? I would suggest lobotomies but I know i'm also prone to bouts of stupidity sometimes...shhhh! dont tell no one tho!

See I did a twofer today! And apparently I need to apologize for my myers briggs blog! I was just trynna allow ppl to get to know wat makes me tick and maybe inspire them to go take one! Plus i know these ppl do not care or even know i exist but still, it makes me feel good to say these things cuz i know i sho would say it to them if they did know i existed :p!!

Five books that changed my life

Ok. granted, some of these books i dont really remember much after I read it, but at that point in time, I take what I learn and I apply it. I should go back and reread some of 'em cuz they were really good!

Sorry for not blogging for so long. I guess I have to be in a certain type of mood to blog properly and I'm sort of back in that mood now again. This is just hopefully the warmup before the work out.

Book #1

I got it for myself on February 14th, 2004 and it has day by day devotionals in it which I sometimes try to stick to. Usually tho, I either pick a book and try to finish it or I just say a quick prayer asking God to direct me to the page He wants me to learn the most from at that point in time..some days it's Ruth, some days it's Matthew. It's just so uncanny how no matter where it is, It really does speak to whatever it is I'm going thru at that moment. Every woman should own one!

Book #2
I'll confess first. At my old church, we did this forty days of purpose thing and I fully intended to do it with the church as a church but for watever reason, I slacked off. I'm still slacking off, I need someone to do it with me and make me accountable. From what I've read so's been really good. It pretty much just taught me how to focus my attention and resources on my if I could only find out what my purpose is, then we'll be in business. So anonymous readers, if u are interested...go ahead and hit me up, we'll work something out. :)

Book #3

The main reason why I love this book is because it is simple.Just like the bible and the constitution, it is written in such a way that you can take the words to mean anything to you. Hopefully not like crazy nuts who completely take stuff from the bible and constitution out of context. It's about a man on a journey to find his own personal legend. This just goes with the whole purpose thing.I think I see a pattern.

Book #4

This book came to me at a time when I was going through some stuff..maybe i'll write about that someday. Maybe. I had had it forever, I think I got it from some Christians on Campus group on Black Wednesday but i never read it. We were home for christmas break and I didn't have anything else to do, so I was like hey, why not. I started reading it and by the time I finished I was in tears. I think I read it on December 31st,2003 and I havent had a bad year since. The main realization I came to after reading this is that my parents are human. It may sound strange because I mean duh obviously they are but I never let them be human. I was always so hurt when I felt that the did something to me. But me allowing them to be human also allowed me to be able to see past their flaws and forgive them more easily. It also made it easier for me to love them not because I had to because they are my parents but because I got to know them better not as parents but as humans and got to love them that way...ok, I'ma stop before I start crying.

Book #5
Ok, don't laugh. But really good books with crazy plots and twists make me cry. Like i'm reading them and all of a sudden tears start flowing. It's crazy!! I think it just amazes me how magnificent the human brain and imagination is. This freewill thing is no joke. I start thinking about how someone could possibly come up with all these things and while it makes me feel inadequate as a self proclaimed writer (i'll never be as good as these people), it leaves me in awe of how much inspiration and how much brilliance we inherited from our Father. Talk about finding God in the details. Books like these blow my mind. Angels and Demons..from the concept to how the beginning seems to be totally unrelated to the end yet it all comes together to how he brought together all these ppl from different continents all because of one thing (lets not even get started about how Tom Hanks was SO not even the right person to play Robert Langdon!!). Maybe I read too much into books and things. But this book is a must read. My children must read it and love it and my children's children must also read it and love it. Gosh what would I do if my children don't love to read? That's a beatdown right there! NONSENSE.

Anyways, these are my five fave books...hope someone else might find even just one of these books even a teensy weensy bit helpful in their journey! Enjoy

Tuesday, December 5, 2006

Hannibal Lecter and I

Ok, so some years ago when I was trying to figure out my purpose in life, I decided to take that myer's briggs test. Come to think of it, I'm pretty sure it was what drove me to my major. N e ways, I sha took it and it determined that i was INTJ..see below:
Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging
and this is what it says about me, and I agree for the most part! Shocking


To outsiders, INTJs may appear to project an aura of "definiteness", of self-confidence.
This self-confidence is actually of a very specific rather than a general nature; its source lies in the specialized knowledge systems that most INTJs start building at an early age.
When it comes to their own areas of expertise -- and INTJs can have several -- they will be able to tell you almost immediately whether or not they can help you, and if so, how.
INTJs know what they know, and perhaps still more importantly, they know what they don't know.

INTJs are perfectionists, with a seemingly endless capacity for improving upon anything that takes their interest.
What prevents them from becoming chronically bogged down in this pursuit of perfection is the pragmatism so characteristic of the type: INTJs apply (often ruthlessly) the criterion "Does it work?" to everything from their own research efforts to the prevailing social norms.

INTJs are "Systems Builders" because they possess the unusual trait combination of imagination and reliability.
Whatever system an INTJ happens to be working on is for them the equivalent of a moral cause to an INFJ; both perfectionism and disregard for authority may come into play, as INTJs can be unsparing of both themselves and the others on the project.

Anyone considered to be "slacking," including superiors, will lose their respect -- and will generally be made aware of this.
They do tend to be scrupulous and even-handed about recognizing the individual contributions that have gone into a project, and have a gift for seizing opportunities which others might not even notice.

In the broadest terms, what INTJs "do" tends to be what they "know".
Typical INTJ career choices are in the sciences and engineering, but they can be found wherever a combination of intellect and incisiveness are required (e.g., law, some areas of academia).
INTJs can rise to management positions when they are willing to invest time in marketing their abilities as well as enhancing them, and (whether for the sake of ambition or the desire for privacy) many also find it useful to learn to simulate some degree of surface conformism in order to mask their inherent unconventionality.

Personal relationships, particularly romantic ones, can be the INTJ's Achilles heel. While they are capable of caring deeply for others (usually a select few), and are willing to spend a great deal of time and effort on a relationship, the knowledge and self-confidence that make them so successful in other areas can suddenly abandon or mislead them in interpersonal situations.
This happens in part because many INTJs do not readily grasp the social rituals; for instance, they tend to have little patience and less understanding of such things as small talk and flirtation (which most types consider half the fun of a relationship). To complicate matters, INTJs are usually extremely private people, and can often be naturally impassive as well, which makes them easy to misread and misunderstand. Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. :-) This sometimes results in a peculiar naivete', paralleling that of many Fs -- only instead of expecting inexhaustible affection and empathy from a romantic relationship, the INTJ will expect inexhaustible reasonability and directness.

Probably the strongest INTJ assets in the interpersonal area are their intuitive abilities and their willingness to "work at" a relationship. Although as Ts they do not always have the kind of natural empathy that many Fs do, the Intuitive function can often act as a good substitute by synthesizing the probable meanings behind such things as tone of voice, turn of phrase, and facial expression. This ability can then be honed and directed by consistent, repeated efforts to understand and support those they care about, and those relationships which ultimately do become established with an INTJ tend to be characterized by their robustness, stability, and good communications.


Functional Analysis
by Joe Butt

Introverted iNtuition
INTJs are idea people. Anything is possible; everything is negotiable. Whatever the outer circumstances, INTJs are ever perceiving inner pattern-forms and using real-world materials to operationalize them. Others may see what is and wonder why; INTJs see what might be and say "Why not?!" Paradoxes, antinomies, and other contradictory phenomena aptly express these intuitors' amusement at those whom they feel may be taking a particular view of reality too seriously. INTJs enjoy developing unique solutions to complex problems.

Thinking in this auxiliary role is a workhorse.
Closure is the payoff for efforts expended. Evaluation begs diagnosis; product drives process. As they come to light, Thinking tends, protects, affirms and directs iNtuition's offspring, fully equipping them for fulfilling and useful lives. A faithful pedagogue, Thinking argues not so much on its own behalf, but in defense of its charges. And through this process these impressionable ideas take on the likeness of their master.

Feeling has a modest inner room, two doors down from the Most Imminent iNtuition. It doesn't get out much, but lends its influence on behalf of causes which are Good and Worthy and Humane.
We may catch a glimpse of it in the unspoken attitude of good will, or the gracious smile or nod. Some question the existence of Feeling in this type, yet its unseen balance to Thinking is a cardinal dimension in the full measure of the INTJ's soul.

INTJs sweat the details or, at times, omit them.