Till Death...

Damn yo! I haven't been here in a minute!!!
Today, we shall focus on marriage!!
Due to the large mad dash for the altar happening around me recently...
These ppl are older than me granted...but not by that much?
Is that what it feels like to be SURE...or are some ppl doing it just cuz, it's the right time and marriage is the right thing to do?
Arent' these people afraid?
At what moment in time do you move from being scared to being sure?
Is there a balance?
When does surety supercede fear?
Do people realize this?

Me sha o, i'm still scared.
This is not school where you study and study and expect to pass
or work where you work and work and expect things to go smoothly
when someone elses emotions and personality and quirks and issues are thrown into the mix it all becomes very dicey.
Will i ever NOT be scared?
I feel like i've come along way from being selfish and so quick to call it quits to being more open and patient and willing to put in the work to make it work..
but i still have issues...
Sooo not ready...is anyone ever ready?

Seriously, do ppl realize till death us do part?